New year resolution out the window.....

[Essie55]

So I started the year on a positive note, with just the one 'new year resolution' . I was adamant I was going to "stop wasting time"
Just a week later & my resolve is no more.....and I'm so frustrated & annoyed with myself.
I'm 54, I'm a mum, I'm a nan.
I'm a long term stay at home mum. You'd think after all these years I'd have a pretty good idea of what it takes to run a home but I feel a total failure.
I have just one child living at home now so no excuses for this chaos & carnage that we live in. My problem is I get overwhelmed, so overwhelmed sometimes I end up just sobbing, wandering around the house, either not knowing where to start or flitting from one job to another, getting nothing actually finished. I get so distracted that I give up & go out walking just to get away from it all.
I just don't know how to get myself out of this, get a focus & get on with something, anything.
Has anybody any tips, just to get me going in the right direction.....

Couple of things:

You made things very hard for yourself as 'stop wasting times' is too hard to define. It's set up for failure I'm afraid.

Instead, can you turn it into something more obvious to achieve?

Eg every morning by 9am I will have written a list of 5 things I need to do that day
I will give myself a 15 minute break after each task but no more
After they are all done, I can rest / do hobbies

Then as you get stronger mentally you could aim to do 6/7/8 things a day.

Do you have a DH / friend / relative who could come and sit with you for a morning to help with a longer term action plan that can then be split into the smaller 5 tasks??

How about the timer trick? Set a timer for 30 minutes and in that time just run around tidying up. Then go out for a walk or whatever after.
while you’re tidying, you’ll realise other jobs that need doing - jot them down as you go, and they will help focus your next days 30 minutes.

Take it one day at a time.

You haven't failed.