I feel like I don’t wonna be here anymore but I have kids 😭

[Wendy3284]

I am a mum to 4 kids and I am suffering with real bad health anxiety and depression is so so bad now I worry every single day the least little pain I get in my chest I think it’s heart attack or other pains else were I think it’s cancer my head is all over place my mum died in 2012 sister 2009 and I have no family no friends all I do is worry at times I just don’t wonna be here anymore but i have kids I never get a break am being a mum 247 no break at all I was thinking of ringing to see if I can get myself in to a mental hospital for three days for they can help me but then I have none to watch my kids I cry everyday I worry everyday I can’t deal with this anymore 😭😭😭😭

Hi @Wendy3284, so sorry you are having such a tough time. Are you in the UK as you can’t just book yourself into a NHS psychiatric hospital here?
Have you been to the GP to tell them how you have been feeling as that would be the first step to getting some help.

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That sounds really awful OP, are you on meds for anxiety and depression? I really think you need to see your GP and get some help.

You need to see your GP. They can offer help and support.

They doctor has gave me meds for anxiety and depression am scared to take them of the side effects etc all I do is worry

Sending love and good wishes and I'm sure other people will have far more constructive advice than anything I could say. Hang on in there. It's a really shitty time of year the weather is awful- have you got anything you can look forward to later in the year to give you some hope?

I understand totally not wanting to take them. Gently I would ask do you want things to improve? Trying the medication could be a lifeline and you may not actually have side effects. Depression and anxiety are bloody awful OP. CBT and fluoxetine have transformed my life. Do you have any RL support?

@Wendy3284 we have a lot of similar things with our mental health. Please message me and we can chat xx

Yeh doctor has put me on fluoxetine only 10 mg a day am scared to take them read up about heart palpitations etc that scares me I have had them before I have really bad health anxiety also just keeps getting worse I can’t deal with it anymore and the cbt I didn’t think that worked for me

Remember that it tends to be people who have had bad side effects who will post about it online so it doesn’t give a true picture of the likelihood of getting them in general.
FWIW, I was on 40mg of fluoxetine and didn’t have any side effects. I was terrified of the potential withdrawal effects when coming off after reading horror stories online but I didn’t get any at all.
It sounds like you are really struggling at the moment so could you try to take the fluoxetine and see how it goes? I found it really chilled me out and stopped my depression and anxiety.

OP the medication may make you feel heaps better. The doctor has a duty of care in prescribing it for you, and in his professional judgement, it is OK.

You clearly are not have having a good time of it and if the meds help, well, give them a go. No different than taking drugs for a physical condition.

I hope you feel better soon.

You can get Fluoxetine in liquid form and could start with and tiny dose (something your body would barely notice), if that would enable you to start taking it.

I needed the medication before I could manage to work the CBT. Have you mentioned your fear about palpitations to the GP? I seriously had no side effects at all. Don’t forget if you google you will get every possible side effect even if there is virtually no chance you’ll get it. It’s far more likely you’ll feel much better. But if it doesn’t help there are other meds.

That’s the thing with heath anxiety I always google every single thing I can’t help it I have tired to stop it it’s so hard doctor has told me to stop it it’s so hard to stop it just fed up with how I feel am a single mum with 4 kids they only have me no one else my mum died my sister died have no family kids dad not interested also not even involved with them just. Can’t deal with the way u feel and the way I think I really do want to feel better and not think bad all the time I might ring doctor Monday and see how the liquid dose of fluoxetine see what they say thank u

10mg is a very low dose of fluoxetine to start with, OP so I would be amazed if you got bad side effects from that.
Please take the plunge and start with the 10mg tablet as it will really help with your anxiety and low mood. Good luck xx

You need to take them, honestly I'm someone who had crippling health anxiety about having breast cancer.
It took over my life and I was ready to end it, I was an absolute wreck. Antidepressants changed my life and I'm back to my old self. I've only ever taken a low dose of 10mg and it honestly I hardly got any side effects. They worked within a couple of weeks too.

Hi OP,

Like you I also have severe health anxiety. I was admitted to hospital back in July with a heart rate of 189 that wouldn't reduce for several hours. Apart from a blip on the first all my ECG's were normal, Dr's say it was triggered by stress. Since then my anxieties have become so bad I've actually left two good jobs for a much lower paid part time one. I feel like every ache and pain is a serious thing, I go to the GP at least fortnightly now as I'm convinced I have cancer. I've been given sertraline but also worried about taking them.... the propranolol is great though for easing panic and anxiety attacks. Can you ask your GP to prescribe that? Like you I'm a single parent to numerous children and feel overloaded and worry about their future if I wasn't around. I just wanted to let you know that you're not alone. I wish I had answers for dealing with it too but am currently up having yet another panic! Try the meds you've been given though, they may just work. Thinking of you!

How old are your children?

Am also the Same always at doctors or hospital if I get a pain in my chest I think it’s a heart attack has bloods done ecg all normal honestly it’s a horrible thing to have just fed up of it now am gonna start taking the tablets see if they help and also I have been on slow release propranolol tablets 80mg a day I been on them for months cos I was getting palpitations but since I been on them I don’t get them anymore doctor said it was cos of my anxiety cos of the palpitations 😔

Age 19 and 3 and 20 months and 20 year old

20 - 10 - 3 -20months old

I do feel for you, it's horrible feeling on the edge all the time. I've had a terrible night so I'll start taking mine tomorrow when I collect them too, I've got sertraline. Someone also mentioned peri-meno to me too - could this be a possibility for you?

I don’t know am worried about that as well 😔 I didn’t start it today definitely gonna start mine tomorrow morning hope I don’t get side effects need to start them cos am fed up of the way I am feeling x

Hi Wendy. I think you're at a stage where it is worth trying the meds. Just think - the risks of not trying them are probably worse than the risks of side effects. I have been on meds plenty of times and only had side effects once - a bit of nausea that went off after a while. And you know that means they're working. In terms of your pains, palpitations and health anxiety - I had all sorts of chronic pains (neck, shoulders, arms, back, knee), getting assessed and seeing chiros and physios, MRI for knee and seeing specialists. Knee pain when standing or sitting. Since getting better mentally they have all disappeared. I think anxiety must cause muscles to tighten or something, something to do with oxygen. You've have plenty of reassurances that your heart is ok, so I would try to realise that your mental state is having a knock-on effect on your body, and give the medication a go. Best of luck.