Hi everyone,
Not sure how to begin this but just need to know there’s maybe someone out there who can relate.
I was diagnosed as Bipolar when I was 21, I’m now 34.
Following years of abuse, I met the most amazing man who is now my husband.
We have been saving for a house by staying with his family. This has over time caused my mental health to deteriorate.
I’m used to my own space and I feel like I’ve lost my mind and I’m ashamed to say that I have been taking it out on my husband of 3 months.
Following an argument, I felt like I was having a breakdown. I couldn’t breathe through tears and started to pull my own hair. He told me to stop and I don’t know how it happened but I then said ‘Stop’ and push my arm down in frustration and ending up hitting him on the arm.
He and his family have asked me to leave and I have.
I don’t dispute that I’ve been hard to be around the last couple of weeks/months and I’m not looking for sympathy. This is my own doing.
I’m just wondering if any of you have experienced any bouts of overwhelming frustration where you lose control in a sense?
I feel the living situation has got to me but it’s hard to be rational.
I am determined to improve my mental health so that I can be the best version of myself again. (The woman my husband fell in love with).
Some things I’ve already put on the list of things to help
- Sobriety
- Attending my psychiatrist appointment
- Journalling my feelings
Does anyone have any other tips of how they’ve helped themselves and managed their mental health?