We had both our own issues. Life's not great for both of us and when we're together it literally gets worse. We both are 22. I loved him more than anything in the world he said he did too. We were harming each other. When he initiated the breakup I was totally broken but also glad and am a lot less anxious now. I still want him tho. Maybe on a better day. When I can be better and if he is better too. The way we are now it's just too hard and he knows it too. He didn't block me on anything. He said i could if i want to. He has been going through some mess. I am heartbroken but there's no way I can lose feelings. He had an issue with substance abuse and has a hard time managing his emotions. I have my own issues. Severe anxiety issues. He was with me when I was at the lowest. When no one was there. I could never be grateful enough. He said that he believes in me even when no one does. I really love him. If I could I would have given us enough love for both of us but I am just as broken as him. This had happened one more time in the past. Then we decided to try again to fix things. I mean we really tried. He tried to change so did i. Worked for 2 months I guess then things started going out of hand. Mostly life. Idk how to explain the feeling. I care for him but he doesn't want me to be near him. I want to be there but I know it's not good for me either neither for him. I think I can love him from a distance. I wish we had met at a better time.