Low, suicidal thoughts

[Anon3837]

Trigger warning

i feel so low, I’m struggling. I’m having suicidal thoughts. I don’t think I’d ever act on them, but it’s scaring me. I’m so drained and worn out, I just don’t know if I can continue like this…

Phone 111

Bless you , call the Samaritans and talk it helps

I’m ok. I may call Dr on Monday regarding medication - been on Citalopram 30mg for years, increased to 40mg a year ago.

Life is so awful at the moment.

Please do talk to the Samaritans. Just a chat might help with the weekend and until you can talk to your own doctor.
Please do call 111 if it’s getting too much.

Hi 👋🏻

Is there something/someone in your life that's so awful At the moment, or do you just mean 'in general?

You should definitely book a GP appointment on Monday & get your meds assessed. You may need to try a different type.

I'm sorry you're feeling like this, it must be horrible!

Grab a teddy (or something squishy if you don't have a teddy, and try to get some sleep .
lack of sleep will not help. I'm going to put my phone away now & try to sleep myself (terrible insomnia) 🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️🙇🏻‍♀️

maybe put some music or white noise on.

Thank you all

There is also the community mental health crisis team. They are there just for these types of situation. I’m not sure it’s best to wait until Monday. Well done for hanging in there.

I’ve found Samaritans invaluable at my lowest points .
I will Also try and watch something funny just to distract myself - usually a repeat of something I know will
make me laugh x
If you can pinpoint the cause eg work / money then perhaps see if anything could support you eg employee assistance / debt help .
Unsure whee you are but mind have some excellent community support - may be worth looking on their website
Take care

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website or email them on [email protected].

Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

Two thoughts help me at those awful times - "this is a day I won't have to do again" and "I'll see how I feel tomorrow"

This is the worst time of year imo for sadness and depression. It's awfully hard being a human I'm sorry

How are you today Op? Hope you are ok, it can be a tough time of year xx

Hi OP, I'm so sorry you're struggling like this. Speaking to your GP is a sensible thing so well done for arranging that. Do you also have any friends/family you can lean on for supper right now? Has there been anything recently that's triggered it, or has life just got on top of you?
I just want to highlight that this time of year is also so incredibly difficult and emotional and it could be a factor in how you feel right now. Just know that these feelings are never permanent. Life is a cycle of ups and downs, and I believe the same with mental health. It's a cycle, and does change eventually.
Please try focus on your self care. Sometimes the little things daily make a huge difference in the long run. Having a relaxing bath, or just being able to have a quick 3 minute shower and brushing your teeth. Getting lost in a book for half an hour and taking your mind off things. Going for a 10 minute walk. Little things like this won't fix your problems, but they will help refresh your mind in the moment and that alone can have enough of an impact to just get through each day.
Sending love and strength to you x

Things are just getting worse, everything is beyond stressful and depressing and looks to likely get worse in Jan/Feb. I’m not sure how much longer I can cope. I’m keeping going for my child, but my child has very complex additional needs and things are hard.

Would you consider calling the Samaritans?

Deep breath. This too shall pass. Not all your problems or worries, but this immediate feeling right now.

Does your GP know how bad things are right now? Does anyone?

Concentrate on getting through the next ten minutes, half hour, hour. Can you do something right now to distract your mind from these thoughts even for a few minutes? Write an email. Pay a bill. Bake. Anything.

If it's really bad, use elastic bands around your wrist and ping them so you are venting some of your pain in a safe way, a way that you're in control of.

Phone a friend - anyone who truly cares won't give a damn what time it is if you are this low.

Please seek help.

If you have recurring suicidal thoughts, when you are feeling stronger put together a sheet of paper with strategies you can use / things you can do in that immediate moment to refer to when it's really bad - that might include venting on Mumsnet!

Can you share any of the things you have to try to cope with, either now or another day? Maybe someone has some practical suggestions you haven't come across yet.

It's so hard and draining to keep going when you feel like there's nothing left in you...but you just need a bit of time an support to get through the next bit, and the next bit, and so on. You can do this.