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Evening all, I posted a while back as I had recently separated from my then partner of 20 years, over the course of our relationship there were many times where he showed horrible and narcissistic behaviour and even though I think I knew this all along I just couldn’t get out of it. The final straw 2 months ago was when he had an absolutely vile meltdown whilst we were out in the car about how he never gets ‘ sex’ and how he pesters because if her didn’t he wouldn’t get it, that was the final straw for me and after a completely draining few weeks he moved out and I will never take him back. The issue I’m having now is that my mental health is at the lowest point it’s ever been in my life. Over the last 2 months I have had some sobbing outbursts at work, not sleeping well, eating well etc and panic attacks. I’ve been to the G.P who upped my sertraline from 100mg ( that I’ve been on for years) to 150 mg, and I’ve been on that for 4 weeks now change. I went to the G.P again this morning and I now have Sertraline 200mg, propranolol, and a short course of Zopiclone and Diazepam. I’m just so low and want to feel like myself, it just feels like I’ll never feel ‘ normal’ again. While he, after all the damage he’s caused is living life speaking to, and meeting other women etc. And I’m here trying to piece my life back together,, so sorry for the essay just feeling rubbish and I knew you guys would understand. Thank you for reading ❤️