I have zero motivation and don,t know what to do about myself

[chocaddict]

Hi
I can,t even say whether I am depressed or not.
But I have been like this for a while.
I have zero motivation to do anything lately.
I can,t be bothered to do anything at all.
I can never be bothered to clean the house, keep it tidy, do the washing or cook a meal.
Essential things like going to the bank,postoffce, food shopping, I simply cannot be bothered with any of it.
I also have no patience waiting in a queue anywhere and often walk away without doing my errands.
I have a part time job working two nightshifts in a nursing home and can never be bothered going to it, I feel really stressed out doing the job as its very demanding and I don,t feel mentally capable to take it all on board.
The job is poorly paid and I never have enough money for anything so end up borrowing money off my mom and dad.
I realise its in my power to do something about that part of my life but I have never had it in me to look for an alternative.
I have my ds to consider making other job choices difficult.
I am constantly tired and feel run down and frequently fall asleep by 9.00pm at night.
I also get really bored, and lonely, at times.
I suffer from terrible shyness so have no friends, my social anxiety makes it really difficult to get out there and make friends.
I just don,t understand myself at all please tell me I am not the only one like this.

Have you discussed this with your GP in case it is depression?

I haven,t.
I would find it very difficult to talk about.
I have tried to get myself going with things but it never works.

Hi choc
Think I 'spoke' to you the other night?
I agree it might be worth seeing your GP. Perhaps you are so down because you are knackered (no wonder!) and because you feel yo ucould be doing something more stimulating?

Lack of motivation, and of enjoyment in normal activities are both symptoms of depression. And you are definitely not alone. I describe myself as socially constipated - I know I am lonely, but am just crap in social situations (or maybe everyone really does just dislkie me ).

The social anxiety is really bad.
Even family functions are bad for me.
I have been to a few family functions where even though my own family have been there there has also been people I haven,t really known.
I sit there too scared to get up and dance as I think everybody will be watching me.
I feel a real misfit sitting there looking like a real boring sod not talking when really its because I have not got a clue on what to talk to people about.
I sit there wishing the night would end as I feel embarassed about the way I am.

I can't remember where, tv/radio/paper/whatever, but just recently I was reading/hearing something about people who don't function well in gatherings. It was on about whther, when you walk into a crowded room, you think everyone there is looking at you and thinking "my god, who is that ugly/smelly/stupid woman with the annoying laugh/daft voice, I hope I never meet her again". But if you think about what you think when someone walks into the room, how often have you ever thought something like that about a person? I always think that people don't like me, and while I will probably always think that, the truth is probably more like they just see a very shy person, end of story. Maybe my shyness comes over as aloofness, or even boringness, since I have nothing to say, but probably they don't in fact all take one look at me and hate me. But knowing that doesn't always help. FFS I was at a work meeting today where there was lunch first, and ended up texting dh at work, just to look like I had something else to do while everyone else seemed happy chatting to one another making polite conversation. I hate situations like that. Loathe them. But I don't think that not going out if the answer - locking yourself away doen't make you feel better, in fact it makes you dread social occasions all the more. You need to learn how to handle your anxiety - maybe your GP could refer you for cognitive behavioural therapy?