Surviving life after near death

[Denny24]

I recently came out of a coma after a bad operation I was then told I would die within 24 hrs my family and friends said goodbye but I survived. My heath is pretty bad but I’m alive for now. Problem is I can’t talk
about how I feel as I should feel like im
the e luckiest person alive I get more
time with my family and friends.but I don’t I feel disconnected.i feel like I’ve been cheated out of dying.I'm sick of the nightmares the trauma of what happened.the pain the worry everything.how can i be so bloody ungrateful .

Because you've been through hell?

If you don't feel you can talk to family and friends could you talk to a counsellor?

I was diagnosed with PTSD after something similar. I’d recommend counselling I did something CBT eye movement stuff can’t remember the exact name but it was very helpful

I survived a very serious car accident a few years ago, very much against the odds. It's changed my life but treatment for PTSD and a lot of therapy, plus rapid eye movement desensitisation have helped a lot.

@Pastlast EMDR.

OP, I've had it and it's very effective for trauma. You don't have to live like this.

Sounds like EMDR

Edit: sorry have repeated what was just said as post hadn’t uploaded when I read.

Thank you all for replying I don’t know if i can talk to a counsellor i Have an app next week with the palliative care counsellor i will go but im
not holding my breath it wilL help as I feel I’m a losed cause to be honest talking won’t change how I feel I would be happy to understand it all though.i am
veey grateful for all your support thank you

Be gentle with yourself op. It's pretty hard to come back from having your funeral planned - been there. It is quite normal to suffer from depression and PTSD after an event like this and recovery takes a while - please get some help

There is no ‘should’. Believing you’re about to die is traumatic - it’s understandable that you’re struggling.