Does anyone feel really down in lead up to Xmas?

[Scoobywho24]

I’ve had a lot of trauma in my life. Around the end of November I start to feel deflated. Reflecting on how rubbish my relationship with my parents is, how I don’t have masses of friends to meet up with to have festive drinks etc. there’s always been something lonely about Christmas for me (childhood trauma!) and other things that make December a reminder that another year has passed.
but I have a gorgeous amazing daughter and a husband I adore now and it upsets me EVEN MORE that it takes away the joy I should have to be with them. I over compensate by trying to make everything magical for them whilst I deep down feel empty. It’s so miserable! I feel it every single year. Any other miserable-but-should-be-joyous parents out there?

Ah the season of freezing cold, dark nights, wishes (that never comes true) and wonder(ing what the fuck you've done with your life).

I'm looking forwards to giving the Cat Christmas presents. Actually that's inaccurate - It's the neighbourhood cat. That might not even show up that day xD

Bah humbug.
But at least the festive lights are pretty (When you can see them through the tears).

Joking asside though, fuck Christmas. Fuck it right up the tinsel filled arse.

I was intending to sod off for a month in the sun, bugger the cost, but alas, I have dentist work this month.

Yes
Exactly this
Except I don't over compensate any more for the DC, I just ignore the whole thing and wait for it to be over. Thankfully for them, DH is considerably better at it all. He does festive, while I ignore it and try to pretend I like it