Do you think meditation may help?

[Scottishbornandbread43]

I am going to make an
appointment on Monday but would like to ask your opinions.

Im nearly 40 and I struggle with lots of things and it makes me really unhappy

1. Social anxiety- I think everyone hates me or thinks I’m weird. I only have about 4 friends.
2. Agrophobia- I do leave the house but if im somewhere unfamiliar I feel very anxious and want to leave so I hardly ever go anywhere
3. Seperation anxiety- when I’m away from my child I’m worried she’s going to be kidnapped (ridiculous I know)
4. Greif - I lost my dad 5 years ago and never got over it and now my sister has terminal cancer. My mum is in her 80s and not in the best health physically and mentally and so I just feel overwhelmed by grief and panic about what is going to happen when all my family dies
5. Tricotillomania - I pull my hair out so I get bald patches
6. Binge eating as a way of self soothing

i have a lovely husband and daughter and I know that should be enough but I feel so lethargic and tearful all the time.

If im not in work - I’m cleaning or bed rotting

I feel like I’ve got so many issues the doctor is going to think I’m attention seeking.
I hide how I feel very well and when I have opened up to a couple of people they have been quite shocked as they said I always came over really confident and happy and a real extrovert - I’ve clearly been putting on a good act all these years.

I looked into seeing a therapist but it’s too expensive

So I’m wondering if I should try anti depressants? Not sure if that’s what I need?
Thanks to anyone that’s read this and advice/opinions would be appreciated

"All these years" - how many? When did these issues start? With your dad's death or beforehand? I ask because finding when and why they began is the best way to dealing with them.

Probably since my dad died and then becoming a mum and having PND

5 years

Although my hair pulling and binge eating has been going on since my teens

I just feel I’ve got so much going on it almost sounds like I’m making it up if that makes sense

Yes go to your GP. I would. Xx

It does, but you aren't (if that makes sense!). Can you print out or show your doctor your post? It's clear, concise and will give him/her a good starting point of how to start helping you.