Would disclosing thoughts of wishing to be dead trigger social services involvement?

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I want to be really clear that I'm not actively suicidal or at risk of acting on anything so there are no urgent worries here.

I've had a few shitty years without much of a let up. Not a year has gone by since 2019 without something happening to me that people would consider a fairly significant negative event. Resilience is waining and I'm once again dealing with something fairly major. When I wake up in the morning my first thought is often 'I wish I was dead'. It's not even fully true but it's an indication of feeling overwhelmed with constant fire fighting of something or other.

I have my first talking therapy appointment coming up. I want to know whether, if I'm honest about how I'm feeling, will that raise a safeguarding concern for my DD. It's only her and I at home. She and I are both safe and my mental health doesn't pose a risk to either of our safety as I have no intention of killing myself and nor do I actually want to. It's more of a passive wishing I wasn't here. On the outside people are oblivious so it's not affecting my behaviour at all. If I say to the therapist that I sometimes wish I was dead is there a risk they'll swoop in to rescue my DD which would just hugely make everything far worse!

Honestly the threshold for removing a child is very high, they don’t just swoop in and do anything, it’s a lengthy process and as I say the threshold is high. You need to be completely transparent with a therapist for the therapy to be any good, and you need to engage in therapy fully in order to get better which is what is best for you and your child. Good luck OP I hope you’re feeling better soon x

You need to be open and honest. A social worker wouldn't take your child away just for some passive thoughts of death.
I recently told my therapist actually that when I wake up I wish that I didn't because life is too hard, nd told her it's passive and I've got no intention to actually do anything about it and we moved on quite quickly in conversation and it's not come up again

No it’s quite a common thing for therapists to hear. They don’t go calling SS several times a day; they just don’t. Xx

No, I really don't think it would.

Thanks everyone. I think I knew this really but just needed to hear it.

You are no risk to your children, so no it won’t trigger SS.
I’ve been where you are, so I know first hand.

I am sorry to hear this.
I am currently having counselling and have disclosed similar to you (but also emphasized I wouldn't ever act on it due to having kids) The counsellor stated it is a common thing to think about but not act on it. They have a duty of care to act but would only pass on if real concerns - if you assure them you won't act on it then they should note that ! Hope therapy helps x

I’m sorry you’re feeling like this. I have similar feelings and it’s really exhausting to deal with.

I wouldn’t expect a therapist to break confidentiality unless you actively had a plan, which you don’t. Please do talk about this. It helps to share it with someone.