I don't know who I am anymore and I feel like I am drowning......

[cruisemum1]

In a nutshell, I am 42, married with a 10yo dd and 19mo ds. both gorgeous. My friends of old have all moved away - bar one. My family have also all moved away. dh works long hours and we do absolutely nothing together. I am basicallyl rasing my lo's single handedly. I feel I am losing my grip. Everything seems like a mountain to climb. Not sleeping well. Plus my dear lovely Dad passed away 16 days ago. Not even grieving well - don't seem able. I want your help.

cruise, how are you feeling today??

ok thank you lucyellensmum . My Mum is here for four days so that is helping. It makes me feel not quite so isolated and having her to help with ds is a real bonus. dd is away on her three day school trip so that makes the workload easier too. i have found myself smiling today which is a first in recent days. I am sure that there will be further ups and downs but I feel Ok about stuff today. Thankyou so much

alfiesbabe, thankyou. I have and still do go through every emotion known to man. If I can help others by sharing my experiances, then I am pleased that some good has come from it.