Anxiety - don’t know what to do anymore

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Hi, I’ve been anxious for the past 20 years and haven’t lived my life. I’m 35 and have honestly had no experiences.
I have a DH and 2 children who are 4 and 4 months. I’m under the perinatal mental health team and have a CPN from the service but they only work with me until my baby is 1. I’m petrified for the future. I don’t know how much longer I can go on being so anxious.
I hardly leave the house, my anxiety has led to agoraphobia - the school run is so anxiety inducing that I do that, go home, worry about having to do pick up and rinse and repeat.
I’ve been prescribed venlafaxine but I’m scared to take it. I take propranolol which helps a bit with the physical symptoms but not with the mental torture of the anxiety.
Any miracle tips would be greatly appreciated

What happened when you were 15?

What, specifically, is your mind telling you to worry about?

Please take the Venlaflaxine, that's your miracle cure. Anxiety is an illness. If you had diabetes and were prescribed Metformin or Insulin to manage the condition, you wouldn't hesitate, would you? I am speaking as both a healthcare professional and a woman who manages her condition with Sertraline. Don't be scared.

@Eyesopenwideawake nothing as such, I’ve always been a worrier but it really came to a head in the middle of my GCSEs when I woke up and physically couldn’t leave the house. It was awful how suddenly it came on.
I’ve had brief periods of respite, but it always returns just a little worse each time.
I worry about everything, now it’s focused on something happening to the children, but prior to that it would be that I’d die, car crash, fire at home, violent burglary etc etc- it’s never ending

@ThianWinter thank you for your reply. I know I need to. I just hope you’re right in it being a miracle cure. Thank you again

Were your parents or grandparents worriers?

It is possible to change the anxiety response, even if you don't know why or how it went into overdrive.

You sought help and were prescribed medication, which you're not taking. You continue to suffer with the symptoms that the medication would relieve.

Take the medication.