SSRI, sensory overload and crying!

[Twoshoesnewshoes]

i have CPTSD from
Childhood abuse, very much recovered now but I have some residual issues.

i have been taking citalopram off and on for several years. I recently came off it, really by accident as I forgot to take it away with me then though I’d just carry on.

i live in a semi detached house. I ve had a lot if anxiety around noise as an adult, most of it irrational. Our house is open plan and the smell of cooking and noise from the kitchen whilst I’m trying to read on the sofa has just driven me over the edge, can’t stop crying now.

I really love our joined on neighbours, we don’t hear voices or tv etc but I do hear doors bang etc (yes, have had insulation).
now I’m feeling and about noise from next door too. I hate feeling like this.
ive found my SSRIs and taken one, I don’t get any side effects.

is that me though? Forever? That I can only tolerate normal life if I’m on medication?
usually I’m fine with that but I’m so low right now. I also can’t work out whether these are real feelings which are muted by the SSRI or whether it’s an over reaction?

I have therapy next week luckily, so I can talk it through then, but so confused right now.

please send chocolate.

I am new to SSRI's - Fluoxetine, 5 months. I can't imagine going back to how I felt before it. Not sure how long I will need to take it, but quite honestly it saved me. Yes, the bad thoughts are muted, overall it is a positive journey. I hope you find the treatment you need. Your mental health is very important and I wish you well with it. You say your neighbours are lovely. Keep that thought whenever the intrusive ones return. I find listening to music or audio books helps.
Wishing you good health and happiness in the future. Remember you are a survivor. It takes strength to get up each day and face the world, with baggage that you never asked for.

Thank you @Derrymum123 that’s really kind.