health anxiety by proxy- it is taking over my life. please help

[Puzzle12338]

sorry this may be a long post

i have been a very anxious person with regards to 'health' for many years
i think it was triggered many years ago when i had cysts o my ovaries and was sent for cancer blood test (all was fine)
i then spent many yeas having health anxiety about myself, i diagnosed myself with many many illnesses over a few years. spent all day on google and worrying
i found stopping the pill helped and i was ok for a few years
had 2 children, was slightly anxious but nothing to major, but would panic when they were ill
in the summer it was triggered again, my husband was suffering headache, went docs for them to tell him he needed a brain scan!!! this obviously sent my into the hole of anxiety again, convinced myself her had a brain tumor, i sat up the hospital crying with him. All was thankfully ok and i was ok again
but then my mum had some symptoms and was sent on a 2 week pathway, this gain triggered me and i spent all day everyday on google, convincing myself she had some serious illness (all was okay after scans etc)
but then, 2 weeks ago my daughter (2) complained of a 'sore head' i didnt think much of it, but that night she woke up with a sore head. Was find the next day, but got a little sick in the evening and complained of a sore head again, of course google has told me its a brain tumor. She has been fine since, but I am making it worse by constantly asking her if she has a sore head
she gets a sore tummy due to constipation, which i can cope with but for the last 2 weeks I have been on edge, watching her every move. Making sure shes talking on, etc
sitting waiting for a phone call while she's at nursey, looking at pics all day to see if her face looks normal!!!
i am constantly on google, looking at symptoms. its taking over my life
last night when she went to bed, she said her tummy hurt, then she said her head hurt, then she said her elbow hurt!! so this has now triggered me again, i am such a wreck that she has seriously something wrong with here, even thought there is not much logical reason for it.
I also now have in my head, if i do not do things in a certian way, something terible will happen!
I am please looking for advice/ reassurance that this is all in my head?!
I've booked an appointment with docs, but im tempted to cancel as i don't think they will take me seriously

Your doctor will take you seriously so please don't cancel; maybe print out your post and show it to them?

When you think about all the times you've decided that you - or someone you love - is seriously ill and then you were proved to be completely and utterly wrong what does that tell you?

Get on some anti anxiety meds OP. I was like you and they have changed my life.

Friend of mine had bad health anxiety and had cbt on the NHS and was totally cured. I was so impressed!

She was a pain to deal with before because no amount of reassurance or logic or talking helped, but the NHS therapist sorted it out. Amazing!

thank you all for your replies

I really hope I can get some help,as I feel i am living in a constant cycle of worry!

1 minute i'll be okay, then the smallest things will trigger be and it hits me again and i'll be in the deep hole of googling and being worried

I don't feel like I have anyone else to talk to about it and it honestly feels so lonely :(

@Eyesopenwideawake i don't know what it tells me to be honest! other than the fact I am clearly over thinking everything, but then at the back of my mind it will always be the 'what if this time it's really something'

when i pass through the stage of complete panic, i realise i completely over reacted, but in the moment I cannot get out of the place

@Puzzle12338 - I asked as these threads always remind me of a poster with health anxiety who said it was a really good job that they weren't a doctor as every single diagnosis they'd ever made was completely wrong! Sometimes being able to take the piss out of yourself is a great way of realising how absurd your thoughts can be at times.

@Eyesopenwideawake thank you for your response

my husband often comes out with things like this (in a light hearted way) to try and make me feel a bit better (after i'm over a certain 'illness' I will find it some what amusing)

If it helps, have a look at my AMA - lots of info on how the mind works on there;

https://www.mumsnet.com/talk/AMA/4559328-im-a-hypnotist-remedial-not-stage-ama?page=1

sorry was also meant to add-
as well as the 'health anxiety' i get overly anxious about other things

for example, if i know my husband is travenling far for work, i will be anxious that he has been in a collision if he does not reply to a message (once i think he should be at work)

last week my mum traveled to an event late at night, i knew she had to drive down country roads, and I was on edge untill i knew she got back home safe

my parents are going away next weekend , and i'm paranoid they will get caught up in something terrible!! it seems I worry about things that 'normal' people wouldn't give a second thought to

i just went to refer myself through the NHS website for therapy, but now its asking for my children's names and DOB so now im worried they will contact social services / my children's school / nursery about me being unstable!