I did put this on a bipolar Facebook page and Literlly no responses I could cry as I don’t know where to turn.
I’m not sure where to start but I have bipolar affective disorder, EUPD, ADHD and Bulimia. Last year I was sectioned due to a really bad low and my eating disorder becoming problematic they put me on quetiapine I put on 8 stone I was devastated At the middle of the year I had a really bad hypomania last weeks where I spent 30,000 went to the Maldives on a whim brought a dog and did some reckless things which I’m ashamed about . In September I lost my job due to health and they reported me to the dvla and now face losing my license I’m on a massive low I’m not eating havnt for days I’m just laying in bed all day I have really bad intrusive thoughts and just keep ruminating my S Ideations are getting stronger and stronger and can’t escape them I’m not on any medication at the moment as it’s poison it’s trying to poison me I feel like I’m in a haze I don’t feel connected to myself I’m trying to put on a brave face as through nothing is wrong when everything is wrong I have calls daily for repayments for all the loans and credit cards I took out and can’t repay. I have two at Bernard’s who constantly want my attention I keep crying I feel hopeless and worthless I don’t know what to do my psychiatrist have left and now it’s someone I don’t know they discharged me from CPN last year I genuinely don’t know where to turn or what to do 😢😢. I can sleep I took 30mg of zopiclone just to try and sleep and they only prescribe me 10 a month and that took hours to kick in. I just want to feel better.