Hi all, I posted a few weeks ago about my abusive ex partner, he was still living in the house at the time and things were awful, he chipped away at me constantly, begging for another chance but I didn’t give in this time and he eventually moved out, just to give you a bit of backstory, I finally had enough when he blew up at me while we were out in the car, it was all over the fact that I didnt want sex in the early hours of the morning resulting in him sulking and just generally being vile. And in the car he said he pesters for it because he has to or he’d never get it. That was finally it for me, he’s always had terrible mood swings, sulks, very narcissistic and has been like this on and off throughout our 20 year relationship. Since he’s moved out I’ve had endless txts, calls, apologies, the usual ‘ I’ll change’ ‘ I’m so sorry’ etc. And for the most part I’ve not replied, but I have occasionally when he reverts back to usual and txts me things like ‘ how could you do this to me’ ‘ im gutted’ ‘ you never thought anything of me’ saying that all he’s ever done is put me and the kids first etc. anyway fast forward to now and things aren’t quite as awful but I feel completely and utterly worn out, I had a complete breakdown at work today, literally sobbing, and then had a panic attack. It’s all just too much. One of the staff at work was wonderful and I appreciate her so much but I just don’t know what to do, I feel ill with exhaustion and I’m struggling a lot. I’ve had support from women’s aid and I’ve started seeing a therapist once a fortnight to help, but I feel so unbelievably low and I don’t know what to do. If you got to the end of this thank you ❤️