I've had intrusive thoughts my whole life. At one point was told I had "pure o" OCD which I agree with but at the time I never pursued help.
Since having my child it's got worse. I'm terrified of everything. I can't watch anything other than kids films or pure comedies as they give me further intrusive worries.
I'm terrified of house fires, of him drowning, of all sorts. I won't even go into it all.
A friend of mine has just been attacked by a dog and had to go to A&E to get stitches. I'm horrified and want to be there for her but while she's been talking to me I cannot focus on anything but awful thoughts about my DS being attacked by a dog.
It keeps me up at night and stops me doing things. I am scared of walking by the canal incase he falls in and drowns, for example.
What kind of support can I expect to receive when I go to the GP?
I have had CBT for other things and found it not at all helpful. Honestly I can accept that the things I worry about are statistically unlikely and I can accept that they're unhelpful thoughts but that doesn't stop them.
I cannot quite accept they are irrational because they can and do happen.
Generally with CBT I found that saying the "positive" thought in my head didn't help at all as I didn't believe it. I don't really have the money to go private but if CBT is all that's available on the NHS then perhaps I could save up for a year or so.
Interested in hearing what kind of therapy, if any, you were offered and whether you found it helpful.