Have you ever got so low that

[Dontknowwhattodo223]

You wished you would get a terminal illness? I would swap with someone who wants to live. I've also wondered if I could hire a hit man but for myself.

Hi Dontknowwhattodo223,

We're so sorry you're feeling this way.

We can see that you've already been given a lot of good advice and support from other Mumsnetters, but we just wanted to add some links to organisations which may be able to give you some help in real life too.

First of all, here's a link to our Mental Health resources. There are many organisations listed which can provide you with some support. If you're feeling very low, you can contact the Samaritans, any time, by emailing [email protected] or by calling 116 123.

You can also get help from a text service called Shout 85258. Its trained volunteers are available all hours of the day and night to listen and support you to get to a calmer and safe place. It's a free, confidential, anonymous service for anyone in the UK and it won’t appear on your phone bill.

And finally, here's a link to Mind's pages on Tips for everyday living and How to improve your mental wellbeing.

Sending good wishes, OP. We really hope you're okay.

Absolutely agree. We have euthanasia for pets, we don't let them go on suffering.

Yes, I've thought that too. People would have to pretend to care a bit.

@Teanbiscuits33 yeah, I totally see that and agree. It's a really hard thing to try and talk someone out of and you can't really. As it's the disease saying it.

Absolutely should be somebodies choice definitely but I think it needs to be assessed over years and after being offered absolutely everything

I replied to your previous post saying no thank you. I'm an atheist and it's really not helping what you are saying.

lol

I'm so sorry you and others are going through this, @Dontknowwhattodo223 . From what you've written, it sounds like you're experiencing a serious depression. Before making any irreversible decisions like Dignitas, it could be worth giving mental healthcare another shot and seeing if they have anything to offer that can help. If you're under the care of secondary care services or higher already, then you could tell them how low you feel and that you would like an urgent case review, including medication review and consideration of other interventions. If you don't have secondary care input, you could consider private psychiatry and/or psychology - it's a potential investment in your life and health, which is worth the outlay.

There are lots of medications and non-pharmacological interventions out there, and it can sometimes be a bit 'trial and error' to find one that's a good fit for you. If you aren't keen on medications, you could ask about TMS, ECT, etc too.

Therapists and counsellors aren't always psychologists or psychiatrists. It sounds like there's a lot that you might want help to explore, so I think it would be important to have a therapist with a high level of expertise, who can recognise when and how to apply different models of therapy to give you the best chance of making progress. If you feel that your current therapist isn't helping you, tell them and your healthcare service, so that they can try to improve things for you.

From what you've written, it sounds like you're a very caring person, so you might get some sense of personal satisfaction and healing from activities that help others or the world around you. If you feel that's something that might be beneficial, you could try getting involved in a community or nature-focused project/group (your mental health team or GP, or local mental health charities might have details about ones in your area), or even just start with something like feeding birds, to see that your actions (even small ones) can have beneficial consequences for the world around you - that you, alive and even as you are now, can be a positive force in the world.