Twins age 8 awaiting assessment for adhd.
So fucking fed up with the constant meltdowns and them being physically and verbally aggressive to me, dh and each other. I've got ADHD with a big side helping of RSD so when they're nasty to me i take it really personally - saying don't take it personally doesn't help - i can't get around my own neurology. I try and try to be patient, nurturing, kind, calm but they press my buttons enough and i can't take any more and i shout which makes things worse. Every day i wake up and think is this it? Why did i even have kids? My username is inspired by one of their favorite things to say to me when they're melting down.
How the fuck am i meant to do this for the next 11+ years? How?