I need to run away

[InMyGarden]

I can't cope anymore. I come last in everyone's priorities. Trying to sell mums house following her death, but a family member is not making it easy. Running out of money to pay bills etc. I have no-one to help or to take over. I am thinking of getting in my car and just driving away. If it wasn't for my DS I think I would not be here.

You could try Turn2us for help regarding benefits etc

Have a look at changing utility providers as you might get cheaper deals. Also look at WIFI and phone. A PAYG SIM is often much cheaper than a contract.

Go and see your GP for a checkup up and to discuss your feelings. You could be depressed. Anxiety UK offer affordable therapy.

If you have debts or are struggling to pay bills, The National Debtline might be able to help.

If you're struggling for food, you could try a foodbank.

I'm sorry you are feeling this way, can you call the Samaritans just to talk through this?

I'm at my lowest point and have to resort to posting here. I get 2 replies. I'm worthless.

What is the family member doing to stop the house being sold? Can you leave it for them to sort?
Why are you running out of money? Are you working? Claiming any benefits you may be entitled to?
Could you live in your mums house rather than sell it?
You aren't worthless. You have a son - to him you are probably number one.
I don't know who is best to talk through your issues. Does your son's school have a family welfare officer? They might be able to help and guide you.
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Two (now four) responses on a Saturday night does not make you worthless. The situation with your mum's house is probably frustrating and upsetting but it is temporary. You leaving this world is permanent and devastating for your son.

Speak to your solicitor on Monday and get their advice on what to do. And talk to the Samaritans - or us on here - in the meantime. Stay safe.

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way.
I'm also feeling exactly the same. I don't have any answers but trying to stay so strong for so long is exhausting

You have had lots of replies on each of your threads.

You are not worthless. You are grieving and in a dark place. Your mind is lying to you because you are sad, and hurting, and tired. 💐

I'm here too.

Pressed send too soon. I'm another person who had a dark moment last week. Flipping heck it's hard and what you described sounds rough on you.

@InMyGarden
You are not worthless. I know it feels so bad at the moment but feelings are not fact. I have to keep reminding myself of that when I feel like you do now. I have a v strong fight and flight reflex and the urge to run away feels overwhelming in the moment but it will pass and you will feel calmer. Please keep talking and people are here to listen and support as best they can x

Hugs to you. I am sorry you are suffering so much. I know what it's like to be rock bottom.

Think practical for now. Emergency look at your budget. Contact utilities for any short term relief for bills, I'm quite sure this is a thing. If you are mortgaged, same thing. Food bank as PP has suggested. Think short term to get through the next few weeks.

You have your DS and let him be your inspiration for keep on going.

Emotionally you need some support but I'm guessing you have none IRL which again I know what that feels like. MN can be a source of support please keep posting here 💐

You're so brave though. I've never posted on MN even thought I've wanted to because I'm a coward tbh. You shoulder the grief of losing your mum and all the pressures on top of that. You said you have no help so that's going to be very hard too.

You’re not worthless. I hear you. You need some time for you and someone to talk it through with. Can you get any help from citizens advice regarding money? Can you access free food apps etc?

I’ve been at my lowest too. The only way is up. Wishing you all the best.

@InMyGarden
How are you today. hope you got some rest x