Hi,
Ive never wrote on one of these before but I have no-one to talk to.
my son is 19 and autistic. He suffers from depression and severe anxiety. He cannot speak to anyone but his family and his best lifelong friend (who he doesn’t see very often) he is very lonely but cannot mix with people so a catch 22 situation. It has got that bad that he doesn’t want to be alive. He has told us life is not worth living. He doesn’t enjoy anything and is just existing. The only reason he is alive is because of me and his dad. He tells us we are selfish for not letting him take his own life so he can be put out of his misery. As you can imagine this is breaking my heart. He is on medication and has it changed several times but it does not appear to be working. He is refusing outright any counselling. He tried it but ended up having a panic attack.
I live in fear everyday that I am going to find him dead in his room.
I don’t necessarily want advice. I just needed to vent and know if there are any other parent out there that has had a similar situation and how it is now.
thanks for reading xx