I'm about to leave a job after a very stressful time. My mental health is in tatters.
Some examples - walking into my cupboard and standing there for three minutes with no idea what I am doing or looking for. My home is a tip. I have a problem with flies coming from somewhere and I can't get on top of it. I have flashbacks - waking up to memories of work events or reliving conversations out loud. I wash my hair maybe once every...three weeks. Until last weekend I hadn't changed my bedding in....six months? This isn't me, isn't like me. I'm on citalopram but it's not really helping. Once I leave work I'm going to start a healing journey but am very broken. I've got a form to give to the GP for an ASD referral as they did say that might explain things. I'll be honest I have no idea what to do work wise or who I will be as I'm definitely a changed person. It's like I saw the world one way and all the experiences at work showed me there's another world. If I'm going to rejoin that world and not breakdown again I need help. I'm not very good at asking for help. Whenever I ask it is never there. Any suggestions?