I like autumn. The colours in the trees. There’s no matching it, it’s glorious. I have been passing time, distracting myself from self destructive thoughts. I have lots of meds, I’m taking them as prescribed. I’m invisible though. I’m stuck here on my own in pain, it’s going to take time I’m told. I think it’ll play out again and again, my head’s stuck and I can’t focus. Can you see me?