...but I recently started really obsessing about it. The urge got so bad I tried it and my DH found out and took me to GP - who sent me to the hospital to be assessed there. I was told I could stay if I wanted but it was such a horrible place.
The thing is, I still consider myself a perfectly rational person. I understand that it is dangerous, I don't want to kill myself, but I got help because I know that looking after my DD is the most important thing and I need to be well enough to do that.
So I reckon this is more an out loud musing rather than a question. I had always thought SH was a bizarre thing to do but I think it is actually just a real way that people work out feelings and pain. though having said that I think I still definately needed and need help to not do it as it isnt the way to deal with things.