Is this depression?

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I don't think so. I'm still being pretty sociable, have been out and about all weekend, enjoyed it, looked forward to it, didn't need to force myself to go.

But, I really can't find any motivation for other more mundane things. I have a good job, which could be interesting if I applied myself, but I can't bring myself to care about any of it and I used to be the most contentious person you've ever met. Similarly, anything around the house. I've never been someone who loved cleaning, but I did take pride in my home and kept certain "standards", now I really don't care. Or I do care, in that the mess makes me miserable, but I can't motivate myself to do anything about it.

I'm 55 and on HRT, which has helped with sleep and I think my ability to concentrate has improved, I can now read a book again, but the motivation is as bad as ever.

I suffered a significant bereavement 3 years ago, but feel "OK" in that regard.

But what is wrong with me and what do I need to do about it?

Sorry that nobody replied to this. I feel the same, which is why I found your message! I am just standing here in my kitchen and there's all sorts of clutter on the shelving unit that doesn't look great. But I can't be bothered to tidy and sort it. Partly because there are so many other things around the house that I should be doing first in order to keep things functioning. But I'm just slipping further and further behind. Did you work out if it was depression or not? A friend has started an antidepressant, and I wonder if I should try one too.