I suffered emotional abuse as a child and even threats of physical abuse which were very occasional but mostly threats. I witnessed a lot of her “episodes” and later in life found out she was bipolar. On photos it looks as though I had a nice childhood but I had an anxiety disorder and sleep issues from an early age. I now have a number of traumas, issues including binge eating, self harming and agoraphobia that I’m working through with a therapist. I also get other mental health support. I didn’t tell anyone as a child, but I tried to tell the police and others when I was older and had read online that it wasn’t ok, that I would be believed and that emotional abuse was serious, neglect and illegal. That I could go into care and leave. And I honestly thought that would be better. I wasn’t believed because we had a nice house and nice things and apparently made inconsistencies in the things I said when I made accounts of things that were said and done to me. I honestly thought I would be believed but I wasn’t, my mother wouldn’t engage in services and case closed. Repeatedly. Every time I tried to get help. I later also found out that someone who has been abused is less likely to tell anyone about it. I tell anyone who will listen and cares about me. I am worried that they might have doubts because I’m so willing