Falling to same behaviours

[StrugglingGrief]

Hello I’ve had two years of therapy and I really want to stop, the issue is I had a two month break and I’m falling into the same patterns of letting the external world affect me too much and not focussing on myself more. But I’m really struggling because my DH is stressed at work, we are hoping to get youngest DC assessed for ND and I’m having lots of personal health issues, I’m still grieving over traumatic loss from years ago too! I can’t get over stuff and I’m just feeling like there is something in me that needs to get out and talk therapy isn’t working,

I don't know what type of therapy you're having so I can only comment generally but this sentence jumped out at me I’m just feeling like there is something in me that needs to get out

When therapy either doesn't work at all, or takes months or years to make a appreciable difference, is that the conversation you're having with the therapist is via your conscious mind - the part of you that deals in logic, rationality and the here and now.

That's not where your problem lies. If issues could be dealt with by rational thinking then most mental health problems would disappear overnight.

Your subconscious mind is responsible for your memories, your emotions, your imagination and all your core beliefs - the way you see and think about yourself and it's that part of you that needs to change; and that's why you wrote that sentence. If this makes sense please have a look at my AMA on remedial hypnosis.

@Eyesopenwideawake wow thank you!! My therapist has made a big difference but it’s all
been remote. She has done some eMDR with me, some tapping and somatic work. I’ve tried shadow work too. Separately I’ve seen a shaman, but deep deep inside me is deep grief. A minefield of generational trauma.

I feel like I’m trying to get rid of something deeply
painful inside me. I’ve looked into somatic work. I want to scream so so so hard.