Depression/FOMO/feeling hopeless

[Overthinker2022]

Where do I start?? 35 single female here.

I'll start with how I'm feeling right now.

There's a festival on in my town today that I really couldn't be that bothered to go to but due to scrawling social media last night, I have since found out friends are going to it and I'm battling in my mind about why I didn't get a ticket. I've been twice before and it wasn't anything amazing then...

Hating the FOMO feeling even though I'm not really that bothered?!

Feeling lonely, feeling like I've not made enough effort to see people and do things, wishing my personal life was completely different to how it's turned out, wishing I had a child to concentrate on instead, desperate to be a mum, feeling worthless, feeling ugly, feeling fat.. list is endless.

I struggle with depression and am on antidepressants, currently on a waiting list for therapy.

My pets are my world, my pup and cat. Only thing keeping me going lately.

Just feel like I need to vent, rarely vent to family..feel like I need to speak to people who have a similar anxious mindset, feel like I need to speak to people who won't judge etc .

I feel better just for typing it all out !!

Sorry you're feeling so sad. I'd guess that you probably feel left out more because you want to see friends than go to the festival, so maybe push yourself to text a couple of friends to meet up soon? I know it can feel overwhelming if you're not feeling happy, but it sounds like it might help. Maybe organise something outside like a nice walk somewhere pretty so that you can chat but also wander in silence looking at the scenery for a bit if you prefer.

I think you're right .. plus I miss the old me.. the social me .. the me that didn't just go home and shut the door after work ..the me I was a couple of years ago .. I feel like I'm drowning in sadness nowadays .. desperately need to pick myself up and start loving myself but it's easier said than done.

It is hard. I hope you feel better soon, especially once you get sorted with therapy. X