I just don’t know where to start. I feel like I’m self sabotaging myself all the time. The more I think about needing to exercise and watch what I eat … the more I seem to be shoving chocolate down my throat without even realising it. I can give 100 % commitment at home & at work (although I don’t work at the moment) but I can’t do anything for myself. I may start liking a hobby but I always talk myself out of it. I find it hard to make friends because of social anxiety (combined with resting b*tch face)… I overanalyse everything - said too much, wasn’t kind enough, mentioned something stupid, walked too close etc etc
Before kids I thought I knew who I was … now I feel like a shadow. Nothing interests me, I want/need nothing. I will doom scroll for hours and all I want is just sleep. Needless to say my libido is pretty non existent and I think it’s a miracle that my husband still wants some as I can’t even look at myself in the mirror.
i want to turn my life around. Where do I start? Most importantly…how?