Anxiety over everything. Even living

[Midnight20222]

I don't know since when it got to this point. But my anxiety and over thinking and imagining the worst has gotten away out of control.
I've had so many worries..some I feel I've imagined in.my.head from overthinking that I don't know what's real or not..or if what happened is over reaction.
I've worried about if I hit a kerb or sticks on road that I've hit someone. So im driving the same route back absolutely paranoid, triple checking. I've worried by using washing up liquid it somehow made people get sick as had some bleach near it. I worry when I see a bike I've hit it..worry when taken an order at work I've heard wrong and will give someone allergic reaction and they will die and I will have to k**ll myself.
These all cause me panic attacks. Can't eat etc . This is unbearable anxiety taking over Mt life now.

You need professional medical help at this stage. Can you call the crisis team in your area or, if not, the Samaritans on 116 123? You WILL get better but you need a helping hand right now.

You don't need to be living like this. Instead be brave and seek some mental health support. In time you will feel so much better. Do this for yourself. Can you book an urgent appointment with your GP tomorrow? Or you could call 111 who can direct you. Alternatively you could text 'SHOUT' to 85258.

Thank you @motherofonegirl and @Eyesopenwideawake for your replies. When I was in my anxiusbstate reading them messages with kindness and support helped more than you will know. I'm so bad reaching out for help but I think I will have to as I feel I'm losing touch with reality and my mind doesn't feel like my own. Thank you again for your kindness to me a complete stranger jjsg reachig out x

@Midnight20222 I do the driving back to check I haven't hit someone too. I don't think that's abnormal.

I also check behind me to see if I've hit bikes, even though I give them so much room (as is expected).

But these things don't cause me unwanted anxiety really.

Are you able to access/afford therapy to discuss this? I think you can self refer for NHS CBT but private would be faster.

You will be ok I promise. X

This sounds like OCD. You need to seek help. Medication and exposure therapy can give you your life back.

Are you on medication? I was this bad. Medication has helped me so much.