I've had anxiety and Pure OCD for as long as I am remember. I've always been in a constant state of anxiety and fear around my health and intrusive thoughts of my own mortality. It recently turned into very irrational thinking and making up scenarios in my head. I've had loads of medications and talking therapies over the years and nothing has really worked and I've been severely mentally unwell in the last because of my anxiety and irrational thinking, struggle to seperate fiction and thoughts from reality. The last three months or so though I've felt marginally better. I stopped the checking and counting and catastrophizing and the constant noise in my head of ways I was going to die had quietened down. I've been much more chill.
Until.. a few days ago, a friend of a friend (so not even someone I know that well) has suddenly passed away. No info on my what's happened yet. I have been obsessively searching and scrolling all day to see what's happened to her, I cannot stop. My minds been racing all day and I'm now back to obsessively worrying that I'm about to drop dead at any moment. I haven't been able to function properly. I'm scared to sleep in case I don't wake up. I have a constant choking feeling, the list goes on. I can feel myself spiralling and my anxiety taking over. I don't want to get unwell again. What can I do to make all this go away I haven't missed it while it's been gone.