Job interview tomorrow with possible PMDD

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Just that really - can I do it?

I took annual leave for a few days to try and tidy up, get through my work and prepare for the interview. Instead I've been like a zombie and worked very slowly, feeling shattered and despairing.

In the past hour I think it's begun to lift. I have some cramping, and can feel my head clearing.

I never remember that this despair is cyclical.

I could pull myself together to prepare for tomorrow. It's online. But I'm so behind, and so tired. I really needed 2-3 days to prepare.

I'd love to hear stories of people going through similar who can still pull it together at the last minute!

You can do it. You're a tough warrior overcoming a ridiculously hard period in your life.

I did it! Not my best but I gave my talk and answered the questions. I would have hated to be a no-show. So I showed up, which is a win.

PMDD is so bloody debilitating. Showing up and giving it your best is more than many would be resilient enough to do well done you. Are you having any treatment for your PMDD?

That's great. I'm not meaning this to sound patronising but if yours is anything like mine was that would have been incredibly hard so I salute you!

Well done you! My pmdd is more like blind murderous rage, or was before antidepressants. Could have done an interview, could not have coped with it going badly.

Thanks all!

It was hard, because rationally I knew I wanted to do it and wanted the job, and irrationally I wanted to throw everything up in the air and be left alone. And I hadn't left enough time to prepare. But I was also looking at it as a learning experience for next time, so am glad I gave it a try.

I'm now on the sofa with a hot water bottle trying to blank out my most embarrassing answers!