How to hang on

[TulaTilda]

I've always suffered with my mental health, diagnosed with anxiety as a toddler and depression at 7yo. I've had a few major breakdowns, the last one I lost my children for a few days.
I'm taking my meds and having therapy and trying so hard to hang on to my sanity. The other day the cubes in my brain were wrong, I became really upset because of this, sometimes I know I can fly. I have so many weird thoughts and compulsions, I'm generally known as being weird but in an acceptable quirky way (no shoes, naming inanimate objects, speaking to bugs or flowers etc) I can't confide in anyone when I'm struggling because I will lose my children and I've worked so hard for them.
I'm OK at the moment so I want to ask, what can I do when I'm not OK to keep myself hanging on when I'm losing the plot?

You can confide in your therapist surely? You can't lose your kids because you are anxious, depressed and have weird thoughts. So don't stress about that.
There is a place called the Mental Health Forum where you can talk to others with similiar issues. Go to mentalhealthforum.net. It is UK based.

Im feeling like im struggking to hang on too. Ur not alone 💕

My therapist reports back to social services and my mental health is being questioned as a risk to the children. As in if they don't have strict routines it's neglect, I self referred because i knew I needed help and its been a nightmare ever since