Feel suicidal waiting for test results. Please help.

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I had unprotected sex last month, very brief and man didn't finish but I took morning after pill as a precaution and have since had a period so not concerned about pregnancy. But my health anxiety is playing up big time about STI. I've spoken with him and he's showed me the text he had from his most recent test showing he's clear and he's not been with anyone since, I've no reason to think I've got one and I've never had an STI, but despite this I'm going out of my mind with worry particularly as I breastfeed. I've been tested but the wait is three weeks and it's excruciating, I can't function, I keep feeling suicidal and full of regret and imagining getting a text message saying I've got something.

Can anyone talk me down please, I can't cope.

Thank you.

I can now that I'm in a better head space - it's when I start spiralling and looking for reassurance that I don't feel like I'm being irrational. Definitely something for me to seek some help with, I think.

Looking for constant reassurance is where you’re going wrong I think. Just wait until you get the results. The speculation that online forums will provide in your desire for “reassurance” will make you feel worse. You don’t need to be thinking about A, B, C extra scenarios when you’re already feeling quite fragile. The place you should seek reassurance should be from the medical practitioner that’s treating you.

This. OP, there are so many things in this world that are more dangerous or serious than an STI. It can be treated.

You will be fine and HIV testing is reliable after one month if it was a venous blood collection.

I think you should talk it through with a therapist though. Ask yourself are you actually scared of having an sti or is this a reaction to the shame of having it.

Say.. you were one of those poor people who had e.coli poisoning from a salad. You'd feel much more unwell BTW than of that with an sti. You would have to have antibiotic but ultimately know that you'd recover. Would you worry about it in the same way as the STI?

"Sexually transmitted infections (STIs) are very common, and over half of people in the U.S. will have an STI in their lifetime." - honestly, it's just part of life.

Yes because i think there is some early detection but then to be fully sure the 3mth time frame.