Experience of fearing you might hurt someone

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Does anyone have experience of this?

It's starting to ruin my life now, i can't get in the car and every second i live in fear that u might accidentally hurt my child or cat.

No help from GP apart from trying to increase ADs or self refer to services.

If i do leave the house every single time i expect a police car outside telling me i've hurt someone and that's so real to me .

Sounds like a form of OCD. https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/obsessive-compulsive-disorder-ocd/symptoms-of-ocd/#:~:text=Harming%20someone%20or%20violence&text=Worrying%20you're%20going%20to,you're%20a%20dangerous%20person.

there is help out there, standard treatment would be CBT with exposure and response prevention (ERP). You could look up some self help stuff around OCD and obsessional thoughts about harm while you wait for therapy?

I'm sorry i didn't mention that i had a block of CBT after my child was born and it was online due to covid and it is exhausting keeping up to all the techniques while trying to keep going ...i don't want to go into the trauma, you could search my last post if you wanted.

It's just really sad. People keep saying they want to raise awareness of mental health but unless you have had a mind that doesn't feel well you don't know and it feels so stigmatising and embarrassing

"Responsibility OCD". I have it.

What works for me is 100 mg Sertraline. (And acceptance that risk is everywhere. But i would never have been able to accept that without Sertraline.)

thank you for the link by the way as i actually hadn't realised that

OCD,I had this when DD was little, scared the shit out of me.

Was the CBT you had specific to OCD? It really needs to be a treatment focused on OCD & would usually be minimum 12 sessions, usually more.

the cbt i had was more for postpartum trauma because i suffered very severe DV during pregnancy and immediately after birth. So i do remember some things that helped at the time but i guess trauma lives on and now im not a nursing Mother it's a lot harder to get support

i just can't even go to the gp as they say increase the medication and it makes me sick and unable to eat. i am underweight anyway suffering an ED which is probably related

Lots of info on OCD here. And support groups.

https://ocdaction.org.uk/resources/