I don’t like my job but I can’t leave for a few years at least (responsible role and very lonely. I am overweight (comfort eat) but the worst is I share being a carer for my narc parent with a sibling.
I feel bad if I arrange a holiday because my sibling would have to shoulder responsibility alone.
I love my husband, grown children and grandkids but I have spent my whole adult life, am now nearly 60, putting everyone else first. I yearn to jump in a camper van and be on my own. I am lonely in my head but physically not.
Everything is hard work, feels like wading through mud. I pretend to be happy when I can summon the energy. I struggle to fit in medical appointments as the rigmarole to get free time is almost impossible. I am self employed so it’s not like I can take sick leave as there is no one to cover and I have to organise time off months in advance.
i am not looking for sympathy but if there is any coping skills that will get me through the next few years without being a misery, please share. Thank you.