Going to Gp today.

[ditavonteesed]

Things have been getting totally out of control and I have realized I need some help so am going to the GP today.
I have no idea what to say, I don't want to sound like the drama queen of the century but I don't want them to think well why did you come here then.
I think I need some Ad's but I really don't want to feel any more tired than I already am and I really don't want to start eating more as I have been trying to lose weight for 2 years now.
I don't want the doctor to think that my children are in danger because they are not but I do have an incredible amount of anger, should I tell them this or will they start to worry about dc. i would never hit them but I do shout all the time.

I love your name and I'm sorry you've been feeling so low. I can't say whether ADs will help you but some sort of counselling to talk about why you are so angry and to give you coping strategies would, in my opinion, be really really useful for you.

It might be worth writing a few things down for yourself to take into the surgery with you so that you cover all you want to say.

You don't sound at all drama queenish. Good luck xx

Thanks Janni, am just trying to write some stuff down now but it allsounds a bit weird on paper.
Do yu mind if I type it out?

Right
Feel tired all the time, can't always get to sleep at night.
Never hungry for meals but then binge eat crap.
Always angry over the most stupid little things
Want dds to leave me alone all the time.
Don't really want to be here, don't know where I want to be but not here.
Cry all the time.
feel left out, like a lost teenager.
Am essatically happy one minute and crying the next.
Always shouting.
When I have a down moment it last for a day or two and I spiral downwards and can't pu8ll myself out of it until i finally give in when dh comes home and go to bed.
Don't want to be alone but feel really uncomfortable around others.
I think that is probably enough for now, is it a bit full on to tell the doc or am I just being stupid, I know evrybody has bad times so maybe this is just one of those.

No, that does sound like you're having a very very hard time. Try to be specific about why and when you cry, why and when you shout..I'm sure it's not 'all the time' and if you can identify your triggers it will help.

Sorry, I'm in and out today with kids so can't get to the PC all the time but will check in later. Good luck at the docs and remember, they really are unshockable!

It also sounds like you feel really trapped.

Doc was great, given me some fluoxitine and loads of self help books and an address for online counselling as I can't get rid of dc's enough to go to counselling.
She says it should work quite quickly but tbh I feel a bit better already knowing that i am going to feel better if that makes any sense.
Thanks for listening I know I am very needy and whingt at the moment. Knowing people are willing to listen helps a lot.

Oh I'm so pleased your GP was sympathetic. There are LOTS of posters on here who feel as you do, so use this site for a whinge whenever you like!

ditavonteesed, they do help i was feeling the same as u a few weeks ago and the doctor put me on them, they do have some side effects but its worth it

stick with it