Hello, i dont really know where to start so im just going to waffle and hope it makes some kind of sense.
Im a SAHM to an 8 months old. My DH is in the forces so we live on a camp in the south of England, we are both origionaly from the North. DH has been in the forces 4 years. We lived and worked together before he signed up so it was sort of a joint decision eventhough it was something he had always wanted to do and had started the joining up process when we started dating. We have been together for 5 years and married for 3. When we got married i decided that i didnt want to live apart so i said i would follow him wherever he was posted.
Since DS was born i have really struggled as it is just the 3 of us. My parents have been a big help and come down to us or we go up to them quite often. Ds has started nursery a few sessions per week to give me a break but i hate leaving him and feel like im forced into doing it because there's no other option.
In an ideal world id love to move 'home' where id have a lots of help but we'd have to live apart from DH which would also be rubbish. I just feel trapped and destined to be miserable for the rest of my life. Im a shaddow of my former self. I used to spend time doing my hair and make up and takig pride in how i looked but now i feel like im always playing catch up so all that stuff is bottom of the list. I hate feeling like this, i have a beautiful little boy who is no bother at all. I feel im not in control of my life anymore and i can see myself just plodding along and looking back in 10 years time and having loads of regrets.