I have a fear of infestation and anxiety in general. The last two weeks we've all had weird bites/skin issues and I can barely cope anymore.
I've been inspecting every inch of the house, constantly checking my and DC's skin, worrying about every little bit of redness, cleaning, steaming, laundering, cleaning some more.
I have read every single Reddit and Mumsnet thread about bites, scabies, bed bugs, fleas to try and compare and find answers. Contacted pest controllers with pictures(who said it was nothing to worry about), done countless reverse image searches, ordered various medications and treatments just in case.
It was a struggle to have enough mental capacity to work this week and today I've left most of the childcare to DH while I sat here Googling, worrying and crying.
Is this really bad? The pressure on my chest is getting heavier. I'm pretty convinced we have some issue going on and I'm already exhausted before we've even started dealing with it.
I'm also considering cancelling all plans and upcoming holiday for fear of somehow passing something to someone.
Where do I even start? I want to feel better, this is mental torture.