I've had anorexia on and off since my teenage years (I'm 39 now) and had been doing really really well for a long time. In fact it's been about 7 years since I actually had a relapse.
I don't know what has happened lately though but I've relapsed big time and have started to hate my body. I always find that if I'm treated badly or disrespected by someone else, I tend to take it out on myself or my body rather than confronting that person about their behaviour.
I recently broke up with someone who would rarely compliment me, but would tell me he was enjoying watching sports and ogling women's backsides. He told me it's something he would never do with me because he "respected me" and my body, I also got a lot of backhanded compliments like, "you're beautiful...to me" . While those comments were not directly the cause of my relapse, I know that they certainly didn't help. The same guy was also a gold digger and I was the one financially supporting him so I've come under a lot of pressure there aswell
I've just sunk back into a hole again and haven't been in that place for a long time. I did have an old therapist who specialised in eating disorders so I'm planning to go back there again and hopefully it will be a step forward in helping me through this again