I have CPTSD and had post partum depression after having both my kids. I didnt have psychosis but have endured depression and severe anxiety all my life through trauma in my childhood.
I struggled badly bringing up my children as my partner was always out drinking and smoking pot. I shouldnt have stayed with him but was brought up to work at it.plus I didnt have the courage to go it alone and my kids love him, so didnt want to take them away from their dad.
Ive lived a lonely, isolated existence cos I never felt I fitted in. I have had loads of different therapists, but talking about my trauma just retraumatised me more.
Im 61 now and didnt want to live anymore as know one could help me. Until three weeks ago, one night at my absolute lowest. I prayed for someone to help me and felt I couldn't go on.
The very next day, while in bed. I was scrolling through YT and came upon a video by Anna Runkle"(The crappy childhood fairy).
She caught my attention as she was talking about healing from CPTSD (childhood and complex). She's not a doctor or a psychiatrist. She is a woman who grew up very poor to alcoholic parents.
She like me, tried talking therapy but left sessions feeling worse. So she started doing her own research in to CPTSD and all these other disorders a lot of ppl have now.
She discovered the brain science behind them. This was 20/30 yrs ago and she started with one blog which has now grown into a massive community including doctors and psychiatrists.
After following her simple writing technique, called the Daily Practice. It's a free course with some short videos walking you through it. I tried it and I swear, I'm up , washed and dressed every day now and I'm starting to enjoy life after years of self defeating behaviours.l
My family cant believe the difference. I'm finally healing from trauma, and I wish I'd come across her years ago. She's so authentic and caring and wants to reach as many ppl with CPTSD and other disorders that she can.
I strongly recommend you look her up on YT. Our brains are disregulated, and it's not our fault. Starting to heal from your CPTSD IS totally possible.
Hopefully, you'll go on to have a happy life with your young family. I just know you'll love her. She doesn't use fancy jargon. She literally saved my life.