Hi everyone,
I had my beautiful son 5 months ago, it was a week of trauma to say the least, I really thought I was ok with it all as I’ve been so busy with my son but now as I’m starting to feel a little lonely in my mat leave, I’m struggling to come to terms with the birth.
Monday (38+4) - a whole morning of no moments, up to triage, on monitor for 4 hours as baby’s heart rate through roof, sent in ambulance to a different hospital as doc though baby had to come out, get to the hospital, baby fine but induction strongly recommended
Tuesday (38+5) - trying to get things going on my own to avoid induction that is booked for next day, no luck
Wednesday - Friday - 4 rounds of the gel, FINALLY dilated enough to have waters broke, no room in labour ward
Saturday (39+2) - waters broke on their own!!! Still waited 24 hours on labour ward
Sunday (39+3) - hormone drip started, when things just became awful, failed epidural, placental abruption, rushed to theatre, spinal didn’t take, put to sleep for delivery
00.57am Monday - finally met my beautiful son
yes I am grateful we are all ok but I will never get over the fact me or my partner weren’t there to meet our son as soon as he was born, to make matters worse I had to go back into hospital for 3 nights due to an infection when my son was just a week old.
should I ask for a debrief? Are VBAC’s allowed after an abruption?
I don’t really know the full point on this post.. a little bit of weight off my chest talking about it I suppose.