Feel so low like I don't want to be here anymore

[Britishsummertime22]

I feel like I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want to wake up tomorrow. I want to trade places with someone who is dying and wants to be here.

have you felt like this for long? I’m so sorry you feel like this

For the majority of 20 years

I’m sorry you feel like this. Is there anyone in real life you can talk to? I know you can ring the Samaritans and just talk to someone if that might help.
Do you have a family? A partner? I am sure they want you to stay and love you very much.

Hi

hows your day been today? Have you spoken to anyone? Have you cooked any dinner and eaten?

I've been there OP but am still here and so glad that I waited to get round the corner to where I am now.

Please don't give up; please get some help and hang on in there. Life can improve - I'm living proof of that

I only have my mum, no other family. we've argued tonight because I've told her it is my wish to die. She called me dramatic and stupid.

Hi there @Britishsummertime22,

We are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way. We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.
We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.
We are going to move this thread to the Mental Health section shortly.

Have you spoken to your GP? Been honest with him/her? Get an emergency appoinment, stating you’re feeling suicidal. Ask for medication or a medication review if you’re already on medication. Meds can make a massive difference. Then look at therapies and changes that you need to undertake to improve your life

If you are feel you are going to harm yourself take yourself off to A&E immediately and explain.

Exercise daily can be a massive help. Get an hour of natural light each day too.

I've been looking at dignitas tonight to see if that's an option

I didn't want this to be moved to mental health as it won't get any replies

Can you move this back please? If I wanted it to be on mental health I would have posted it on mental health.

Hi lovely why are you reaching out to Dignitas? X

Your own mother called you dramatic and stupid after you told her you don't want to carry on? Who needs enemies when you have a mother like that.

Yeah. It really hurt.

I just wanted to see if it's an option financially for me.

Hi Britishsummertime22,
I feel exactly as you do, long not to wake to face another day etc. I just wanted you to know I understand how you’re feeling. I have been on antidepressants many years, been to therapy & psychologists, every day is a struggle. If you would like to talk about things, I’m here.

Hi OP, I’m sorry you’re feeling so awful. It sounds as if your mother might be abusive to respond in the way she did. I think if you only ever see your mother and she’s invalidating your feelings and making you feel bad about yourself, you’re bound to feel depressed. I live with my mother who’s a covert narc and it’s destroying my mental health.

iv used Samaritans before when iv felt overwhelmed, couldn’t stop crying and felt very low, they just listened and I spoke, felt good to get it off my chest!

I feel the same. I honestly don't know why I'm here. I have two teens who are unbelievably lazy and a mother who don't stop nagging me.
I just can't cope much longer it's really getting to me.