I hate myself for this

[paulhollywoodshairgel]

I have many mental health problems. They are mostly under control and I function well. Until I'm out of my routine. I find the summer holidays an absolute hell on earth. I hate myself for this. I love my kids and I want to do things with them and have fun. But I just can't function. They seem to have to be doing something all the time. They never stop talking. They are 11 and 14 so am I wrong in feeling they should be able to sort themselves out some of the time?? I just feel constantly anxious and teary because I'm not doing enough. Anyone else? Am I a terrible mum?

Hey there, I just wanted to say that loads of people struggle with filling the holidays and it does not make you a terrible mum!
I hope that you can find the right balance for you and your family.
I don't really have any good advice, but I find making a schedule/ plan for the week helps. Then there is a bit of an overview, the kids can contribute to the plan, and you can schedule some quieter times for yourself.
Best of luck with the rest of the holidays!

At 11 and 14 I think they are definitely old enough to take themselves off and do stuff together. At least for some off the hols.