Really struggling

[Sparklingredshoes]

I am normally someone who is upbeat and happy most of the time but I have been struggling with anxiety for a good few months now, it’s come to the point that I am so anxious that I am struggling with everyday things such as going to work, going out to family and I feel like this is slowly taking over me.
this has now started to effect me physically, I am feeling super emotional tonight and also it has now started to effects my bowels, and I am now anxious leaving home as it’s not just one time it can be more then 4 times if I am not great.
my relationship has not been in the best of places over the last 8 months which has also had a negative impact,
I have been looking to move house via mutual exchange now for a few years and found an exchange to my home town, I think my anxiety has peaked due to the will it happen or won’t it and just how fast it’s all happened, fast forward to this week where it has now been approved but my mental health is absolutely in shreds and I don’t think tbh I am physically or mentally well enough at the moment to be undergoing such a physical and emotional transition especially with how I feel.
And I don’t think the other party would be happy if I explained mentally how I am feeling.
i have been in my current home 20 years, while this move is closer to family and friends and I’ve been saying for years how I can feel isolated here and in the winter it’s not great, this is still home, my safe place and probably the best place for me at the moment feeling so low. this house holds so many happy memories and is decorated to how I want it.
i am scared I move and regret leaving my house that I have loved which I think all this is definitely impacting my health.
i just don’t know what to do.
i would be looking to move in a week and also work full time.
i just feel overwhelmed, empty and emotionless.

A first step would be to see your GP.

Moving is always anxiety inducing but it sounds like the best thing to do in your circumstances. It's much better for your mental health and overall well being to have a support system.

If you're struggling with your bowels and you are worried about leaving the house, try Imodium.

Thank you,
I think alot of how I feel is down to how fast everything has picked up over the last few days. But I agree if I stop and close my eyes for even a second I am back in my childhood area and like you say closer to a support system, it’s just hard thinking of a physical change with how up and down I am.
I’ve seen my GP just waiting for CBT and I use Imodium but on bad days sometimes anxiety can still get the better of me at times.

I'm sorry you're struggling but gather what support you can get and try and do the move. It sounds like the best thing to do.

Hell I'd be anxious if I used imodium, that stuff keeps me ill. Just let the skitters out instead for a start!

Secondly...can you afford a holiday. A few days away just to relax yourself.

Thirdly, you are your home. Not the place you stay. Focus on making yourself better and you'll find you can make healthy choices.

It sounds like you just have last minute nerves.
Take a day or two somewhere to yourself. Call in sick and go to a spa (if that's your thing) or a yoga class. Meditate. Take a holiday. Or hit the gym.

You need a few days peace to rebalanced yourself.

Then, be brave.