I think I am depressed, but I have no idea what to do

[StressedAndDepressed1]

I am 25, and for full disclosure I am overweight. I know this is bad and people will tell me how bad it is.

However I feel like I have completely lost myself. I used to be really interested in sports, could sit and read a book in an afternoon, used to love going to the gym and was really invested in eating healthily - low UPF, whole foods etc.

Over the last few months I have lost all my interest in everything. Would happily lie in bed all day. I have no passion to watch the sports I used to, I have no interest in them. I'm irritable, can't sleep, and I feel like everyone hates me. I feel like I'm letting everyone around me down.

I use all my energy to go to work. After work I'm drained, I don't want to do anything.

I lost 5 stone, and got down to 19st7. It was my lowest weight in years and I was SO proud and excited to carry on. I've put on over a stone again. I know it's bad, but I have no motivation to go to the gym. Everyone says "just force yourself" but it's so hard. I'm tired down to my bones.

I know if I go to my doctor I'll be told to exercise and eat healthy, but I just feel like a shell of a person. I feel empty, I have nothing. I am nothing. I don’t know where to turn or what to do, without being told it's all due to my weight and I need to stop being lazy. I feel broken

Does anyone have any help? Please?

I know you wanted to avoid it but I think your first port of call should be your gp, just tell then exactly what you’ve said on here. If it’s ur weight that is the main thing getting you down then they’ll obviously want to address that but if it’s making you this unhappy and impacting other areas of your life then it sounds like you could do with some help with your mental health too. Medication or some talking therapy may help in the short term. Good luck with it xx