I dont know how to start this.
I recently returned to work in May 9 months PP after giving birth to my second baby (16 months apart from her sibling) and I have noticed that my anxiety and health anxiety have got progressively worse. I thankfully have private health care through my work and decided to seek help straight away, and have started seeing a therapist.
My two children are in nursery, and the fees are absolutely crippling which I dont think is helping, and we have recently moved house and my DMs health isnt doing too great either and I feel like im constantly on edge and worrying.
I decided this week to take some time off from work to get myself together, however I cant help but feel nothing but guilt as I have just basically had two pregnancies back to back. My manager has been nothing but supportive.
I just feel quite lost and confused. I dont want to give up my job, because I really enjoy it and the people are lovely.
How do you balance working and having children? I feel like I hardly see them, and that was me dropping my days by 1 day. So I work 4 days a week. My partner also dropped his days by 1 so we can save some money on childcare.
Im rambling. I totally get im in the thick of it with having two toddlers and working. Its life, and people have it worse than I do.
Any advice or words of encouragement would be lovely.