I'm 55 have a lovely life, I work hard (50 plus hours a week always seem to have to be available usually manage 1 day off per week) but thats ok so do most. I have friends that keep me busy - though recently realised although i'm a great friend (apparently) i do most of the arranging of things which is also makes me think maybe i'm not as popular as i think and if i didn't arrange things no one would. I don't have to worry about money and live in a nice area with two grown up children and a lovely DH. Nothing is wrong and that's the point, i feel so guilty about the fact that i have everything i need and i'm still not happy in my own skin! I just constantly seem to be battling to feel carefree and happy! My anxiety and low mood has got me like a tight ball of muscles which makes me feel rubbish!
I'm on HRT for around 5 years now which def helped the anxiety that crippled me in peri menopause but i'm desperate to feel how i used to feel - carefree, happy and be able to live in the moment and be on my own. If i felt more comfortable in. my own skin i think i would take time out on my own for self care. I eat well, sleep around 6.5- 7 hours a night, my job is active so easily hit 10,000 steps a day, i walk my dog but i can't seem to settle and be happy in my own company- does this sound familiar? My job means i often work solo and i just get restless and can't settle which ends up with my body aching all over and a lot of headaches. I have seen a counsellor in the past and get the strategies but these increasing low moods and headaches which accompany them are doing my head in - my shoulders feel so tight and tense maybe thats causing the headaches! anyone else feel this way - theres only so many times i can say tomorrows another day. I'm feeling like this now far too frequently