I'm not sure really what I'm going to gain from the post but I haven't gotten anyone to talk to. I'm a single mum of 3 , currently going through heartbreak.
I wake up everyday wanting to not be here anymore,I don't have the guts to go through with it tho.
I had a lot of childhood trauma growing up and spent alot of time looking forward to being an adult and changing my life around and making it better and it's not turned out that way.
Iv been treated for depression and anxiety over the last 8 years and being honest all the medication has done is mask the problems. I have been under therapists and also a psychiatrist when I was pregnant with my youngest daughter. Nothing seems to be shifting this feeling . I look at my kids and wouldn't want them to ever go through what I'm feeling and if I was Gone there's no one for them to go to. I feel selfish for bringing them in to the world and them seeing me like this. Any past relationships iv had have been a disaster,eather domestic violence, mental abuse ect.
I'm sat here with no friends or real close family and 3 little girls who no I love them to piece's and I no love me to but I don't want to live this life anymore